i will be your summer sun.

sometimes you find reason to live in the smallest things possible.

my Zach Oliver,

roughness may hit our relationship as we walk through it, especially lately when we’re facing a lot of challenges this world throws at us. there are fights. there is even a time when giving up seems like the easiest thing to do. i’ve been so vulnerable lately that i’m trying to make things right by almost erasing the most precious thing we have which is our bond as one knot. i’m just so unsure and afraid of the possibilities ahead. overthinking it is probably one of my biggest flaws, but through it all, you give me security, certainty, and stability. i should’ve known that. or maybe i always did, but i’ve been too blinded by the struggles to see it over your shoulder.

there is a person who, once you know them deeper, the deeper and clearer you see their pureness as well. that is what happened to me with you. you have shown me a sincerity that i have truly never seen in my life before. because of you, i’m lucky enough to have met a person who values me even more than i value myself. i have witnessed someone who never gave up on me, even when i was ready to give up on myself. i don’t even know how it is even possible for someone to love me so purely, so beautifully. i never thought i was worthy of a love that deep, of someone who would fight for me like you do. but you did. you did. it feels like even if the world turns its back on me, you will never leave me alone. you are my refuge, my safe sanctuary.

you are on that little things list of mine. your existence is one of the most profound reasons i am still here, in this world, breathing and moving. if there were a word to capture this feeling, i would set aside the word 'love,' because this is something far greater than that. it’s as if i have discovered something that quietly existed just for me to hold for evermore something that will never abandon me. an immersurable worth of gift. 

i am no genie. i’m working on myself, on the dreams i wish to pursue. because of that, i can’t be the one to bring your dreams to life. yet i place my trust in you—not just for myself, but in everything you are capable of achieving on your own. i can only pledge this: i will remain with you, through every moment, through every breath. you will never see my love for you wither, nor will it ever be the cause of our separation. i’m made of love, i know this with all that i am. and all of those love belongs to you. you are the object of my deepest longing. you hold my complete devotion, and that is my promise, unbroken and constant, one you can carry in your heart when everything else feels uncertain—just as you did for me.