Zylven Bellefious.

It honestly feels cringe if I do call her The Sun tho AJDKAJDK. Please consider this as a letter instead of an aesthetic telegraph. I'm sorry if turns out weird by the way.

First of all.. let me call you May since I always call you by that name. May is.. clearly stronger than me. The way she kept her problems to herself. The way she fought the urge to share her problems to her loved ones. Instead.. she supported me.

She always has that unique way to approach someone. And I like it, tbh. The way she talks, the way she mumbles. The way she's just simply smiling and laughing to little things I did to her. She made me the happiest person to ever exist to the point I might cry of losing her. She always noticed whenever I'm not feeling like myself. She made me realized that I'm worthy too. I can never forget the way she spammed me the whole day just to check if I'm doing okay. The way she got excited when I told her I'm back. Oh wait.. I'm crying. “clean up today, take a quiet room and take a deep breath then you can exhale that slowly. you can felt you're still alive, your heart is still working, you're able to pass all obstacles for today even for tomorrow and for the next day, trust me..” Little did you know, May. I trusted you for that. I was at my lowest state and your words kept slapping me on the face, in the most positive way possible for sure. You keep me going.

I have no idea how much you mean to me. I have no idea how much I love you. I have no idea how I'd burst into tears when you're gone. You're always there for me. You've always been. Remember when I cried to my crush? Or when I felt like I'm losing the best person that must've happened in my life? You remember? You were there for me too. Words can never describe how much I want to keep your light in you, May.

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