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I Lost My Virginity to a Straight Boy
There’s a way to burst through the shame gay men are made to feel about homosexuality.
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I was 19 when I first had full-on sex with another man. I was at college, living in dorms, and the experience—aside from the usual horrifying awkwardness and somewhat spontaneity of the occasion—was completely and utterly unremarkable aside from one thing: the guy I slept with identified as straight.
The whole thing went down near the end of my freshman year at a party, at which people from the whole dorm floor were drunk and celebrating, carelessly streaming in and out of each other’s rooms, following the various different pop songs until one room took their fancy. I can remember, although I'd had some drinks, sitting alone in my friend’s room on a single bed, the mattress overly springy and with a coarse plastic coating, attempting to stream a song over our dorm’s spotty Internet connection.
It was late (or early, depending on your outlook on the world) when I was joined by the boy who was living in the room next to mine, way back on the other side of the building. He was clearly intoxicated, but it was a party after all and who was I, quite drunk myself, to judge. The minutiae of exactly how things developed from us being together in that room to us having slightly unsuccessful sex in a bathroom in a different corridor have since escaped me. All I know is that one moment we were talking and the next minute, well... we weren’t. I didn’t tell him that I’d never had sex with someone before; instead, saturated with vodka and inflated by nerves, I was swept up in the motions.
Before that night, I had hardly been a nun. When I was a teenager, I was precocious and restless. As the only out young gay kid at my school, I took the advancement of my sexual experiences into my own hands and I did what we all do: I bought a fake ID and hit the gay clubs. Out on the scene I had thrilling and, now looking back, precarious hook ups with guys, going far but never all the way. I know now as LGBTQ people we can define exactly what constitutes sex for ourselves, but when you’re young and your only sex education comes in the shape of illegally downloaded Sean Cody videos, penetration seems like the end all be all.
Still, as I grew into my late-teens, venues started to crack down harder on underage drinking, and it soon became increasingly difficult to go and hook up with guys much older than myself. I felt, in my increasingly anxious and deflated state, that I was being left behind. My first year at college, apart from being grueling mentally, was hardly a sexual smorgasbord of one-night-stands and hook-ups. Instead, I reverted to my teenage years, pining after straight boys who I knew I had no chance in hell with... until that night.
I’d love to say that I felt empowered by fucking my first guy, but the whole experience left a lot to be desired. While I knew it wouldn’t be like a gay college erotica I’d read on Nifty.org (gay canon, really), I rather naively wasn’t expecting the fall out. The boy told his then-girlfriend (who I knew about), saying I had come on to him but that nothing had really happened. Although one thing I can vividly remember was that it was quite literally the other way around, the visceral shock of being somewhat shoved back in the closet and denied the celebratory expungement of my virginity was palpable.
For the next year, we’d hook-up on and off, usually at 3 a.m. after we’d been out partying. We’d meet surreptitiously in dark and make out in the cold British weather on a park bench before venturing back to his place to have sex. And while at the beginning I felt like I had the upper hand in the situation—I was the one who was out and comfortable in my sexuality, right?—after each time we met became more secretive and more dirty, I began to feel secretive, dirty, and most of all shameful . I’m not sure whether I really fell for the guy or not, but I do know that at the end of it he was just using me to get off.
I never learned whether the boy I lost my virginity to was struggling with his sexuality. I think, when I look back now and occasionally find myself tumbling through his Facebook page, that he wasn’t. I believe it was just sex, or at least that’s what I have tell myself now to avoid slipping into a memory induced k-hole. I realize I fell into that old gay adage of placing my feelings on a person who, for whatever reason, was never going to invest them back in me. Worst of all, though, the shame attached to the memories of those first times marred how I would approach sex for years.
It was listening to Years & Years’ new song “Sanctify,” and seeing the band’s out gay singer Olly Alexander talk about how the song was inspired his sexual trysts with straight men, that I realized that these feelings are way more common than people let on. Sure, I know all about gay guys having sex with straight guys, but it felt reassuring to see him describe the “saint and sinner role” he embodied during those experiences, and to hear the uncertainty and melancholy weaved into the song.
More than anything though, was the repeated lyrical mantra of “I won’t be ashamed.” Because as queer people, we’re buried in lifetime’s worth of shame so vivid and searing that oftentimes it’s crippling. Bursting through that shame is our badge of honor, our beautifully united experience. And maybe, like the song says, that does sanctify our sex lives and makes us just a little bit holy.
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"What is a twink?" —straight people, yesterday.
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If you walked past Jaimie Wilson on the street, you’d probably take him for an all-American heartthrob; muscular build, deep blue eyes, and casual scruff. You would probably never guess that he’s one of approximately 1.4 million transgender adults living in the US today.
In 2015, Jaimie made the brave decision to start transitioning from female to male (or simply FTM for shorter), shocking and alienating most of his friends and family. “At first I was scared to come out with my gender transformation because I didn’t give any ‘signs,’ as people say,” he writes on Instagram, where he now enjoys over 300 thousand followers. After 2 years of testosterone treatment, surgery, and hard work at the gym, 21-year-old Jaimie has sculpted himself into the man he’s always been at heart.
Though his transgender female to male progress is astonishing, the people from his previous life who chastised him for being ‘too feminine’ to become a trans man have now been replaced by his fellow members of the transgender community, many of whom, ironically, criticize him for being ‘too masculine.’ “People say that I’m trying too hard to be like a cisgender male,” he told Cosmopolitan in a March 2017 interview.
The bottom line of it all? “You are NOT who people think you are, you are who you know you are,” in Jaimie’s own words. The aspiring country musician is making waves on social media, and is scheduled to perform at Sziget Festival in Budapest this August, alongside The Chainsmokers, P!nk, and Wiz Khalifa. See his unbelievable transgender before and after transformation for yourself below! More info: Instagram
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Winning a lotery twice - gorgeous as a woman, sexy as hell as a dude. Go Jaimie! :)
yes indeed, there are not many people who can be that gorgeous both ways!
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Seriously? you ass. I'm not a woman, I very much support all trans people. F**k u
I TOTALLY AGREE I ALSO AGREE WITH JAMIE, I THINK HE LOOKS AMAZING!! I cannot UNDERSTAND HOW A FAMILY TURNS THEIR BACK ON A LOVED ONE??? It completely boggles my mind. I'm a 59 yr old disabled grandmother. And the idea of not having my daughter , grandson, or granddaughter in my life, or turning my back on them is just impossible for me to comprehend Way to go JAMIE, I hope your life is EVERYTHING YOU DREAM IT TO BE
My thoughts exactly, gorgeous both before and after.
Agreed .. I'm mind fucked (in a good way).
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I was thinking the exact same thing!
Ya he was gorgeous as a woman and absolutely smokin as a man!!!!
winning the lottery 3 times...you have to afford it as well....
That's exactly what I was thinking!
I"m not into trans gender people, but I could go for Jaimie! lol Damn he sexy!
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Did I mention I have no dick for you?
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The irony is that women will always secretly support their own, even after transition into a fake man. I've seen no such article on a man transitioning into a female with as much, if not more praise than a female into a male. This, folks, is what we call tribe mentality. The fact that the majority of the supporters of this article alone is over 90% female speaks volumes.
I'm a man and absolutely support him. So there goes your stupid little theory.
Also I have a good friend who was male and transitioned to female and guess what she got my support too crazy right? I must be the exception
Bravo you have figured us out we are all here to support only women and basically stomp out the (non trans) males with our "tribe mentality"
So desperately sad his family have abandoned him- I lost my son through ill health and if he had told me he needed to do this I would still,have loved him. They don't know how lucky they are. Bless you and I wish you every happiness in the world!
You are a wonderful person, Margaret!! My mom and dad were parents to so many of my friends who were disowned for being LGBT. I wish that they could have had a mom like you! Your son was blessed to have you! *hugs*
i have zero against LGBT i am a man, i believe there is a higher power in life that will judge are lives, but saying that even the christian god says we should love everyone, i do not believe who you chose as a partner in life is what god is offended by, god i believe is simply offended by taking pleasure from sex, that is simply my opinion, i do not judge anyone else on how they chose to life their lives, i do not find taking joy out of sex as being imoreal when trying to procreate.
I lost a son in the womb & it was so physically traumatic that I can't have another. It pisses me off royally when I see that someone won't accept their child. I also have transgender & gay family members & I wouldn't ever want them to suppress who they are just to make someone else happy. If anyone doesn't want their child because they're different, there are plenty of people like me who'd be more than happy to take them in & call them family. Spreading ugliness & hate is what's wrong, not following your heart.
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Ones choices in life have consequences sometimes that are not always good...
I will never understand a parent giving up on their child because of this or being gay or the like. Never would that cause me not to love any one of my 3 kids. How could I?? I made them, they are part of me, my blood and flesh. So sad for these young people who need their family and friends to be there to help support them.
Neither will I. You just abandon 18 yrs (or less or more) of care and love with the blink of an eye, just because they don't love like you want them to? I'm not religious, but if there were an afterlife, I sure as heck wish those parents to stand before their godlike entity and be demoted to scrubbing the underside of their god's shoes! I can understand a lot, but I will never understand someone willingly shutting out their children for something ridiculous as this.
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To be fair if you had a son or daughter for 18 years it would be quite an emotional adjustment to deal with the loss of one and the appearance of another, don't you think? If it was obvious throughout his/her childhood no doubt it would be easier to adjust and be happy for your child. I wouldn't be too judgmental. Some people just aren't flexible mentally or emotionally. Hopefully those that aren't will come around in time. In Jaimie's case maybe the friends and family were rigidly religious.
I'm with you there... I'll never understand either...its heartbreaking
If you're able to toss away your own flesh and blood over such a minor thing, then you're not much of a human being.
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Metal illness is no laughing matter Phil...
I'm with you. I'll support my kids in any path they follow. Except bullying. If they turn into bullies we're going to have a problem. But gay, straight, bi, trans, whatever, I couldn't care less as long as it's right for them.
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Amen!!!!! Support them unless they bully! (In which case still love them, but help them get better)
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Not everyone thinks like you. I would had done the same thing. I couldn't live with my daughter doing a stupid thing. If you are a Girl, you stay a girl, if your are a boy, you stay a boy. Or if you want to change, you have to accept that people may not want to talk to you. Each people have the right to react like they want.
And that attitude is why you will die alone because your kids won't be able to handle the fact that you're a bigot who doesn't love them. Because NO PARENT who cares for their kids would say one word in your execrable post.
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Winning a lotery twice - gorgeous as a woman, sexy as hell as a dude. Go Jaimie! :)
yes indeed, there are not many people who can be that gorgeous both ways!
@65 6c 69 74 65 68 61 63 6b 65 72
Seriously? you ass. I'm not a woman, I very much support all trans people. F**k u
I TOTALLY AGREE I ALSO AGREE WITH JAMIE, I THINK HE LOOKS AMAZING!! I cannot UNDERSTAND HOW A FAMILY TURNS THEIR BACK ON A LOVED ONE??? It completely boggles my mind. I'm a 59 yr old disabled grandmother. And the idea of not having my daughter , grandson, or granddaughter in my life, or turning my back on them is just impossible for me to comprehend Way to go JAMIE, I hope your life is EVERYTHING YOU DREAM IT TO BE
My thoughts exactly, gorgeous both before and after.
Agreed .. I'm mind fucked (in a good way).
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I was thinking the exact same thing!
Ya he was gorgeous as a woman and absolutely smokin as a man!!!!
winning the lottery 3 times...you have to afford it as well....
That's exactly what I was thinking!
I"m not into trans gender people, but I could go for Jaimie! lol Damn he sexy!
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