To The Moon, I've Given All Of My Heart

It feels unfamiliar—two souls who once loved each other now lost in the cold air of estrangement. This isn’t what we meant when we promised, "We will always be together." I wish that promise still held weight, still echoed in the sky, still found favor with the universe.

"Bagaimana kabar mu?"

That soft voice reaches me, yet for some reason, my head feels too heavy to turn and meet your gaze. "Aku baik, kamu?"

And just like that, everything I spent years building crumbles when those dark, familiar eyes meet mine.

Once, those eyes were the ones I longed for the most. Once, they were the ones that softened my world with their gentle gaze. Once, they made me feel like I could reach for anything.

"Boleh aku mengatakan hal gila?" you ask.

I blink, nodding, hoping that whatever it is won’t hurt me anymore.

"Aku merindukan mu."

My breath catches. How can you shatter everything so effortlessly? That night, we walked away from each other, strangers moving in opposite directions. Strangers who, cruelly enough, knew everything about each other's lives—strangers, nonetheless.

My knees feel weak, but I smile and pull you into a tight embrace as if tomorrow doesn’t exist. This isn’t about what we have now. It’s about everything we once shared—everything that once made us, us.

I swing my legs idly, kicking at the air, eyes tracing the stars above, knowing that love—vast and unwavering—sits beside me.

"Kamu tau aku selalu merindukan mu?" you whisper.

I stay silent, letting you continue, letting your voice fill the quiet of the night.

"Obrolan menjadi lebih mudah dengan mu, aku katakan pada bulan bahwa denganmu aku bisa berada lebih tinggi darinya. Sepertinya dia tidak terima, maka aku di tempatkan di dalam sepi olehnya" You pause, sighing. "aku suka berbicara, mungkin aku cinta berbicara pada setiap orang tapi tidak ada yang membuat ku jatuh sedalam kamu lewat suara"

I turn to you, smiling. "kamu tidak akan jatuh cinta dengan mudah oleh orang lain begitupun dengan aku"

"Kamu salah, aku jatuh cinta pada mu saat mata itu bertemu dengan milikku, aku jatuh cinta pada mu saat suara mu masuk ke dalam telinga ku dan aku jatuh cinta padamu karna setiap deru nafas ku rasanya memanggil nama mu"

"Di bulan penuh cinta, aku tidak tau kalo cinta yang seutuhnya ada akan kembali jatuh pada mu, jangan kembali pergi, aku tidak akan kuat lagi melewati dingin tanpa genggam hangat mu"

I search your eyes, looking for lies. But there’s nothing. Only regret. Only sorrow.

"Pada bulan, aku sampaikan seluruh rasa ku."

Wasn’t that night beautiful? A February night—a month of love. But no, with you, I will always live in a world where love lingers, where love never fades as easily as it arrives. So let me hold your love, through this month, through every season, until we meet again beneath the falling snow of February—with the same warmth in my hands, from the one I love most.