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With your arms that don't touch me anymore

Abandoned heart that's still completely alone

Pushing back connections till they're gone

Walking on the empty streets away from home

I guess I'm heartless after all

No oxygen and everlasting fall

Blood passing in the subway veins

My happiness swam down the drains

If friendship is obsession with you

I want to be alone

If addiction brought only joys to you

Our connection must be gone

We had good times together

We had our sacred place

Our friendship's bit corroded

I want to fix mistakes

I was so immature

To let your mood possess me

But now I'm not that sure

To want our feelings let be

After the fight has ended

With no winners at all

Sadness and sorrow

And I'm lying in the hall

The ground is cold

Tears down my face

And it's both our fault

I just need to reflect

Reflect the despair and pain

Reflect the moment again

To move happily afterwards

To heal my broken bones

Hatred inside of me

Like resin inside of a tree

I feel the need of discharge

To strike lightnings and thunderbolts

To destroy every tiredness that grows

I feel the strong need of discharge

I've waited too long for reaching relief

Mean thoughts and actions are the only thing I currently believe

It's like getting down the abyss

Of the lake has evaporated long ago

This darkness concentrates inside me, erases the bliss

That feeling of letting everything go

It's like I'm crumbling and eroding

With no way to stop the pain

No way to be happy, the mechanisms corroding

I go to sleep to wake from the terrible ache, again

It's like there's just a half of me

Just a couple organs and soul

You're all happy and busy

While I can't even end this all

I tried to help you when you was alone

When there were no friends, no family, no one at all

And then I'm here, stuck at home

Why I keep giving, even if I know..

So I'm just here

Alone again

A single tear

My damaged hand

Oh can I be

Someone who needs

Embrace me

Love's fragile seeds

Apologies to all

Who still believes in

I wish I could've said

Forgive me

I think you just can't imagine

How rude you've always been

And I'm the one who's carried it

While you've just stood and seen

All my tries and struggles

All for nothing

And your egoistic deeds

You're not fond of loving

But you still won't get it

I speak with a fucking wall

And you're gonna ignore it

I guess you've reached your goal

And maybe after years

Of being mean and selfish

You'll send me song and feelings

My anger will be devilish

I understand how you got there

And I knew it all along

My burning itching love for you

I guess it's where you belong

I guess it's where you belong

Your spores reached me

Mutualistic and close enough

To no longer be free

Our bond now is tough

The one who brought me happiness and care

Now makes me hate and decompose

Drowning in the agonies and pain

Only thing that matter - my tiredness had rose

Farewell, best friend, I wish you love

And thank you for staying with me

Now, with a halo above

I need to find new place where I can be

Completely hurt and lost in sorrows

Reminiscing on times we had

Deep wound, my heart now borrows

Tragicomic stage play, and now it's dead

Remember our first winter

Remember the first snow

We were in love together

Your heart was my new home

The struggles and obsessions

My lifeless stare into the soul

Self harming and depressions

And I was left alone

You left me for a moment

That moment lasted long

I've last all hope and dreamings

Heartbroken lover's song

I met you once again

We've tried to held our love

One-sided and forbidden

Like dying, mourning dove

Again, there was a silence

But now the sides has changed

I saw you really suffer

Your feelings wasn't embraced

It's hard to be together

It isn't meant to be

So please, my love, forgive me

It's over, can't you see?

Пусть нежные слова ласкают мне уши

Будто больше никто не нужен

Пусть прикосновения вызывают экстазы

Почему мы не встретились сразу

Spiraling downwards again

There was hope that I'll never be here

Alone with my dark colored pain

And all of you aren't even near

To understand my pain

Spiraling downwards again

Stained yellow glass of pain

I thought we'll never meet again

Sun passes through the holes

Sharp crystals on me grows

Abandoned and forgotten

Crying and distorting

Still growing the pain polygons on me

That I wish everyone could see