Qua?

In some respects, I’ve been correct all along. It took about 20 years for the subterritory to emerge, and for the awakening to hit everyone. Can you imagine living a world where THEY controlled it with such arrogance, embellishment and petulance for so long? Such -ance. And being in control for nearly 100 years, can you imagine unsuspecting sheeple? I was alienated, oppressed and subjugated for my beliefs because of THEIR influence on the people I loved, THEIR manipulation of their hearts and minds, and THEIR directing them to the artificial means of spirit and survival.

But all that comes to heed soon, maybe even today, as it is a prime, albeit not THE prime. 

My certainty about current events stems from having consumed all the subterranean and important material starting at 17 years old. Before high school, I was mostly well-versed in Catholicism, but was just a good student. I don’t remember having strict biases, but I was being pulled more towards words. Part of that was naive biology, but the other part was the character of those teaching math versus humanities. My math instructors weren’t personable, and felt like authoritarian figures, like numbers were God. And sure, many a mathematician, scientist or polymath hath claimed these symbols the language of God, Metatron’s verbalization, Logos, but I never felt that way, and neither did the other side. So unfortunately, the happy medium of more literal symbols to expand upon emotion clarified the missing element most numbers neglect. 

Once I left high school after being introduced to sociopolitical views and some of the pop writers with mystery leanings, I followed the bread crumbs in college and blew my mind wide open. It didn’t take long. I was already primed for it with the selectively-attended curriculum I chose, and having dated a rather liberally-educated girl whose family I spent significant time with. Arriving in SoCal and meeting a somewhat sheepish but alternative-minded roommate enabled my expression more. At this point, I unknowingly was searching out media, searching out those already enlightened. I believe I didn’t yet have qua, but I was neurobiologically-primed by two previous TBIs, so this was my synchronicity, my convergence, my concrescence. I left SoCal after only a year because of a broken heart, and when I arrived home, I had to search myself. 

None of my peers in college sans one or two, really had a knowledge base I appreciated or felt touched by. Sure, they were into some of these ideologies for show, but never intellectually, practically or spiritually. It was their popular delusion. My delusion was very personal, so it was easy to see around everyone else’s. It was at this time, around 19-20, that I omitted all pop culture being made anew, focusing on music alone, but knowing I had been in an illusion until then. This was the fundamental awakening for me, the differentiation of my delusions, or self-delusion, and the illusion crafted for me by Bookchin’s first or second natures. Then 9/11 happened.

Most of these ideas are impossible for anyone to grasp, much less them want to. I always get the, “why do you consume such bad or dark or negative things?” I have to, I have no choice, and honestly, when I learn more about the atrocities, oddities and abnormalities that we avoid, I’m made happy. I feel like I’m revealing the narrative that all must know if we are sustainably going to make it through the rest of this century. I have to fight to maintain the last string of humanity left in our need to move beyond this planet, as if we are alien.

Sirius and Earth are related, as per Robert’s Anton Wilson & Shea. RAW believed we pulled the cosmic trigger some time in the 1970s, with other predictions made for 2012, and of course the awakening emerging fully by 2020. But there are instances from these individuals that are very intimately resonant to me, whether Parfrey and RAW, or McKenna and Robbins, or Bey and Crimethink. No matter their approaches and knowledge base for the ideas, they were of the same.

But by 1973, many were opened to this (like PKD). 

One of the ideas I laid forth was, in order to save Earth we’d either have to kill off many or hyper-reproduce to preserve a few after the Eschaton. Remember, the Fall was first, Jesus is the medium, the Eschaton is happening, and we’re de-evolving to permit what is perceived as the most evolved. But I still can’t understand how Jew thinks it is them, when Babylon & Egypt (they can claim Semitic right) were first, and when even the spiritual beliefs of the Naledi led them to bury their dead miles deep in the earth perhaps forced by smell, perhaps as ritual sacrifice, or perhaps a mausoleum, years before this.

Let’s use Naledi as a cult belief system and see where we get. If you followed their culture as ritual, your food would be dust, dirt, roots, tubers, seeds and nuts. No cooked foods, and you’d be a gatherer. But they had the teeth and shearing force to chew through raw plant or muscle fibers. It’s possible the Naledi used tools and made fire because of hand anatomy or bone structure (similar to other species making tools, like Acheulean, of which I had traced myself to from Magdalenan-Kebaran, but perhaps only an Afro-European discordancy), but artifacts for such weren’t found.

I used “descendancy” (and could have used “descent”), but found the first correction “discordancy”, which is what I spent the last two hours searching on another Mac, this one with only Bluetooth turned on, now off. Fuck! There goes my theory. I didn’t have WIFI on, so why would “discord” be the first term to autosuggest? Well, Bluetooth was on! They still had access openly, as opposed to my thought of remote viewing. Of which they use technology, and I use mind. Fuck you! 

Pause: I got carried away looking through the Middle Stone Age, or the Middle Paleolithic, and the arbitrary periods that are separating, from “modern human” to Neanderthal, and a range from 800 ka to 300 ka for the divergence. The end of this period is 80 ka-25 ka based on the approach to writing and climate-dependent migration and sedation. But what’s most interesting are the classic racial tensions being worked out, how anthropology will genetically and mythically eliminate religion, or at least will fine tune the classic argument of “chosen” or “first” peoples, and will rationalize our desperate attempts to get beyond earth. If in fact a more advanced species presents itself in the near future (whether extraterrestrial or intraterrestrial to Earth, or just psychopathic, self-hypnotized humans), this also adds to the human narrative. Who was it that said, this will be the greatest story ever told? Ahh... stuntman Brad Martin.

Apparently, the numbers 1, 10, 45, 136, 325 and 666 matter as sequence.

Now as it goes, there’s speculation that the deep state has been taken out, that what we are seeing are replications or simulations. All I think about is red versus blue, Bloods and Crips, those that drink and eat their dead versus those who bury them.