Opposite

[Verse 1]

I wanted crowded tables,

A hundred names to call,

But I was always the last one

Sitting alone when class was done.

I wanted Friday nights out,

Somewhere I belonged,

But I just liked their stories

And watched the night move on.

[Pre-Chorus]

I wanted sleepovers, voices through the dark,

Instead I spent my nights with people in my heart—

Characters I made up

So silence wouldn’t win.

Funny how imaginary people

Were the ones who let me in.

[Chorus]

Am I always gonna be the one left behind?

Never anybody’s first call, first choice, first in mind?

Will I grow old with the TV lighting up an empty room,

And die inside the silence I’ve been running from since youth?

I wanted a life overflowing,

But somehow I became

The opposite, the opposite

Of everything I ever prayed.

[Verse 2]

I don’t even know now

How you’re supposed to meet someone.

I act like I’m exciting,

Like being me is fun.

But I’m terrified you’ll know me,

’Cause knowing means you’ll leave.

They always like the surface—

Then disappear beneath.

[Bridge]

Maybe I’m boring.

Maybe I’m too much.

Maybe I’m ugly,

Maybe hard to love.

Maybe I’m strange,

Maybe I don’t belong.

Maybe they’re all right

And I’ve been wrong all along.

[Breakdown]

So tell me—

What the hell am I supposed to change?

My face? My voice? My head? My name?

How many pieces do I cut away

Before somebody finally stays?

[Final Chorus]

Am I always gonna be the one left behind?

Never anybody’s favorite, just someone they don’t mind?

I spent my whole life begging for a room that felt like home,

Now I’m scared I’ll spend the rest of it learning how to be alone.

I wanted noise, I wanted people,

I wanted someone who would stay—

But I’m the opposite, the opposite

Of everything I ever wanted to be.