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I’ve had three interrupted flows of thought over the last 3 days about what will go down over the next week. Things just keep happening right on schedule. When Juneteenth and Trump were going to clash, the date was changed for the convention. I mentioned the Redskins will change their name early in the week, and a call was again made by a mayor. And of course, a scientist calculated the added 8 years to the Mayan long count, polarity shift, end of world, end of bʼakʼtun, etc., and it happens from NOW until Friday. I mentioned this last week, and in 2012 along with others who can count, not conspiracy theorists. The emergence happened in 2012 simply based on incorrect calculations for Julius and Gregorian counts in accordance with the Mayan form. This had been debated for some time, as has the reading of Mayan and Mexica calendars. In the 21st century, just suggesting any date and our hive mind begins to stir. But for myself, I discovered more about 2012 through Daniel Pinchbeck, in his book of the same name. That was years ago, and the focus was on “breaking open” the mind using entheogens, but 2012 happens every day for someone new. Perhaps 2020 is the everyone NOW moment because of all the tragedy and lack of awareness people had been rolling along through with no concern except when and where the next banger is at. Fucking pathetic. ‘I’ll kill you’. I mean, coronavirus will. Probably a car accident. Probably a cop. Probably not a BIPOC, but en masse, don’t protect racist statues. Or statutes.

When Bob Dylan and the rest emerged from the 60’s thinking they’d changed the world, they really had. Their ability for free speech and State-directed aggravation was stronger than what we have today. Nixon could do little, and what came out of it were secret, State-controlled “reforms” and “acts” to protect, yet we lost more land and animals, empowered more white law enforcement, and saw the greatest and most disparate shift of culture and wealth the world has ever seen. So THEY failed. They had too many non-WHITE figures assassinated, and too many passive WHITE artists filling their shoes.

That's in motion. We’re starting with the reforms and acts again directed at the problem, but only “at it”, not directed beyond it, through it, above it, below it, without it included. Everyone wants to explain defunding and abolition. WITHOUT it. Give it a try. Some of you drive less than a mile to do something. What!?

Throughout most of American history, laws have not worked to their ultimate purposes, yet we do it again. The wordy and lofty conceptualization politicians and policy makers use serve their interpretations, their beings of OBJECTIVITY according to a lineage of whom THEY think was right. I mean correct. No, I mean RIGHT. Unalienable as given by GOD. Until ALL AMERICANS move past GOD, nothing will happen. BLACKS and WHITES will pray together, then play together, then slay each other together. ‘Tis the story since 2020, 1965, 1863, 1776, 1609 and 1492, with some carefully revisioned HISTORY telling us how after civil unrest, we all got along. Until the next one.

There won’t be a next one. 

I want to clarify a few thoughts from within this. First, when I say I’ll kill you, and you think it’s YOU I’m writing about, then you’re doing something wrong. Then you have FEAR in you that is from violating ME somehow. I won’t kill you, but if you keep doing this, one of US will. Second, my mind begins to scatter as I approach the end of this brief essay. When I consider American history, all the incorrect narratives, all the sources trying to still get theirs, I’m worried. I see who sits out and how. I see who is active and why. I see who knows to wait and who was eager to get out of the house. I see what regions fight for, what cities fight for, but what AMERICA is fighting for. Before we were born, nativists, WE were fighting for this day. We tried your way, for hundreds of years, but we want more of our way in the thinking and organizing of the future of our land. We don’t want to be told what to do, and then demeaned by a false meritocratic economic system and hierarchically-colored causeway just to get our VOICES heard. We’re done with that. There are MORE of us than you, and more of us control the things you NEED. We don’t need them the same because you created a culture of scarcity for us well before most of us realized it. We ALL realize it now. Words are no longer enough.

I was watching 60 Minutes for about 5 minutes because the story was on going back to campus in the fall. UNC will, William and Mary will, but the way W & M’s president spoke about uncertainty kills me. She claims humans seek out certainty, they’re are afraid of uncertainty. She is far wrong. That is why she is at William & Mary, and why I’m more concerned with other things.

You see who thrives on chaos. That’s what uncertainty is. 

My school is not going back in fall. It’s staying online. I’m angered. Thoroughly.