If You Hear Me Dying

Hey...

Hey, don't hang up...

I know it's late...

I know I shouldn't call...

But I don't think I have another night

to waste pretending I'm alright.

[Verse 1]

I've been carrying your name

like a secret in my lungs,

like a prayer I never had the courage

to say out loud.

I was so good at leaving,

so good at saying goodbye,

but I never learned how to tell you

that you were the reason I survived.

I kept my heart behind my teeth,

I kept my hands away from yours,

I thought I'd have forever

to knock on your door.

But forever was a lie...

[Pre-Chorus]

And now my voice is fading,

and the room is getting cold...

There's so many things I should've said,

so many words I never told...

[Chorus]

If you hear me dying...

please don't cry.

I'm sorry I waited

until the end of my life.

I should've told you every morning,

I should've held you every night...

I should've said "I love you"

before I ran out of time.

'Cause even if my lungs are drowning,

even if my blood is filling the space where I breathe...

I need you to know one thing:

You were always the only one for me.

[Verse 2]

I'm always on the other side of the line for you...

(I’m always on the other side of the line for you)

Even if my hands are shaking,

even if my voice breaks through...

I would crawl through every nightmare,

I would bleed through every scar,

just to hear you say my name

one more time before I'm gone.

There's a bullet in my chest,

and I can feel the silence grow...

The oxygen is leaving me,

but my heart still wants you to know...

[Bridge — emotional breakdown]

I loved you...

God, I loved you...

I loved you when I was afraid.

I loved you when I walked away.

I loved you when I pretended

that I didn't need you to stay.

I hated myself for hiding it,

for making you believe...

that you were just somebody...

when you were everything to me.

[Final Chorus — louder, almost crying]

If you hear me dying...

don't let my last words be a lie.

I don't want to leave this world

with your name trapped inside.

I should've fought for you,

I should've swallowed my pride...

Maybe you would've loved me...

Maybe you would've stayed by my side.

But now I'm just a voice

at the end of your phone...

A ghost begging forgiveness

for a love I never showed.

[Outro]

So if tomorrow comes

and you never hear from me...

just remember this...

I was always loving you.

Even when I was silent...

Especially when I was silent.