Here I will talk about my experience in a relationship

*I use a translator, so I apologize if the text is distorted.

My first serious relationship was at university. I came to study to be a civil engineer in another city. At that time, I was naive and a person who had not seen adulthood. My parents couldn't pay for my housing and the guy decided to take responsibility for himself from the moment we started living together.

As in all respects, everything started well. But at that moment, I still did not know how terrible this relationship would turn out for me. At first, it all started with verbal insults. He allowed himself to say that I was ugly, fat, did not know how to make up and bad style of clothes, and of course stupid (at that time I was not a conscious person and did not understand what was happening). Then it turned into the fact that at the moment of quarrels, he started hitting me. It was a terrible time because at that moment I couldn't tell my friends and parents about it, so I was just looking for an excuse for him.

At the moment of another quarrel, he broke up with me and I went to live in a university dormitory. Six months later, he wrote to me that he missed me and asked me to start all over again. And I moved in with him again, hoping for a miracle. He didn't hit me, but the emotional and sexual abuse continued. After a while, I started streaming (I was always not a naked model, but at the time of the relationship I didn't even take off my sock). I saved up money and rented an apartment for myself and started living alone

This experience gave me the opportunity to sort myself out and delve into psychology to figure out how I got into such a situation.

At the moment, I don't need a relationship, because I need to go a certain way to become a decent person for my future family. My big dream is to have a home and a strong family, where every family member will feel safe and feel love. Despite his negative experience in relationships, he gave me the opportunity to look at my shortcomings and work on it. so I'm still at the beginning of my journey. I know that one day I will be able to achieve my dream

I am very pleased that you have read to the end. so you're really interested in my personality. If you want, you can also share your stories from past relationships. I know how difficult it can be, but sometimes you can't share it with your loved ones. That's why I'm going to be the person who listens to you.