Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery

I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in an extended while, I don't feel alone.

Element of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be this for the incorrect reason; as a means to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. acim teacher Don't want it troubling your mind, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of something that I had said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere using its residents'peace of mind, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.

You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.