Daniela Pieper Hannover

Beyond my wildest expectation

I had a relationship fales start that did not lead to my intention of greatintimacy with enlightenedsex, but I had a great breakthrough in the area of sex here. I cocreted enlightened third stage sex which is the answer to everything that is not working in the area of sex between men and women. Still I am single again. And what i experience with this deep change while i am reprogramming my pattern with unavailable men is that there are saboteurs in my psyche. For instance i start to yearn for the excitement of the hunt. I go through withdrawal sympoms. I experience this wave of distancing as boredom. And I see how important it is that i dont follow the impulse to escape.

Inspiration kindness and gentleness are not as exciting in men as cravingand obsession with a bad boy or an unavailable cool rockstar guy. I learn to navigate this. I am no longer going after the wrong men while passing the right ones. Yes, I recognize this boredom for what it is now. A temporary distancing that springs from my very human fear ofintimacy. And i am responding in new ways to meeting decent availablemen. I damit the defeat of my small self in trying to generate what i deeply desire for my life. I thought if i just got the perfect relationship, that would be the final fulfillment. I even had got that for a year and i realized that’s not the final fulfillment, and then i was thinking, if I just could express my artistic self, and so i took a bunch of classes and got into some artistic painting, and that temporarily added a certain layer of fulfillment. So and then i realized it didn’t really fill that hole, and so i go to the next thing, a soulmate relationship. 

The grasping never ends from false center. Wanting a soulmate is not going to take me anywhere, tis‘ not going to take me beyond the ego because the ego’s what’s seeking. After any date that was not inspiring strong emotions were coming up and a pull in the direction of defense or withdrawal. It was important for me not to stop seeking for my mate too soon. I needed the deeper realization. I have mixed motivation with my intention for happy healthy love. I want some relief from the tension and difficulty of life, but a deeper part of me does want to know the sacred, does want to awaken and evolve and become the answer to everything that’s wrong with the world. I’m deeply resistant to following this higher calling that another part of me wants. Awakening to truth is a harsh business Ultimate truth comes at a cost. The cost is everything about me that is unreal.

1,5 years later: 2017-

I got that Adrenaline is what we are conditioned to and what causes neurotic speed in dating relationship and sex. Oxytocin is bonding and connecting. What I found to be highly inspiring about oxytocin that it is bonding women to a sex partner. As soon as this information sank deeper into me I changed my whole sexual behaviour and habits – with one and two bodies. I got that when I fantasize about a dominant masculine alpha penetrator/violator i program my body into a default pattern of sexualdeprivation.

I changed that relentlessly after this evolutionary information clicked in. Then I fantasized about the masculine devine ravisherwho would open me up for the God and Evolution. I blogged about this honoring empowering game changer sexuality. Weeks after the blog was published i magnetized the man into my life who was exactly that- the divine ravisher. It was cocreation because he wasnt that when i met him- I made him that by inspiration or i magnetized him into his evolutionary ravisher self. It is infectious or magnetic if you are that third stage woman expressing the yearning through her body. It is groundbreaking and a newoperating system that comes online which is finally working. It is beyond my (and his) wildestexpectations.