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One already raged, it seemed: Race riots sparked that spring in Baltimore, continued from the prior summer in Ferguson, Missouri. The grandest American riots of the 21st century. Many how-come s and therefore s were written, but the tracks seemed plain to me. Akin to Peace Corps volunteers, or Robin Hood, you could say. And each time, from some honest citizen, came the same reply: us. Us meaning, for the rest of our time together, black people. So, I watched those masked children shattering windows, stomping the hoods of police cars, setting fire to the pharmacy and the gas station, and I marveled not that they had done it, but that it had taken so long to come. Every now and then the kids say Fuck it. I offer my round of applause. Not that I joined them. Just as damn near every young black person took to the streets, I began to disappear. A therapist later suggested I was depressed, but I did not, at that time, believe in therapists, or depression — or, increasingly, anything — so, having no better ideas, I turned off the engine, so to speak, and walked away. I lost a lot of friends. I was not without support, however. Through all time to come no event will be more sincerely deplored than the introduction of slavery into the colony of Virginia during the last days of the month of August in the year ! It is true that free and enslaved Africans joined Spanish explorers in the Americas as early as the s. There was, for instance, Esteban the Moor, who served as guide and translator for a party that ran into trouble near present-day Tampa Bay, ran into more trouble just off the Gulf of Mexico, trekked across the Texas desert and on throughout the Southwest and into Mexico on their genocidal adventure. But was a different kind of landing. Whatever the brass tacks of Anthony and Isabella — who were in that party and later gave birth to William, the first black child born in the American colonies — we know that many hundred thousands were stolen out of Africa and trafficked to this land. We know that they, and their children, were enslaved, upwards of 4 million, for generations. We know that they were worked like mules and tortured and sold, up to and after emancipation. But did you know that some could fly? Trapped in slave ships, taken across water wetter than tears , many forgot their flying powers. But there were those who remembered. Some would simply disappear, jis go right out uh sight. The mad white overseer, who could not understand their chant, would chase the flying slaves. Goodie bye, goodie bye , they waved. We — if you are who I hope you are — still find ourselves, years later, in a bind, or a country. Our country. We have learned and taught so many tactics to survive in it. To assimilate, best we can. To fight for our rights, even to the death. Yet here we are, shit in fan, wondering at least, I wonder what may be our next best move. I have come back to offer a way — one that saved me, just as it once saved our flying forebears: the black art of escape. The whole bloody mess was a week-long stretch of July that went as follows: On a Tuesday night, two cops in Baton Rouge pinned a black man to the ground outside a convenience store and shot him six times, to death. The day after that, a black man in downtown Dallas and killed five cops with an AK while they guarded a protest, organized to lament the events in Baton Rouge and Minneapolis. I did not remember saying anything calm or pacifying or inspirational to anyone at that New York dinner. Although my knack for projecting those qualities was, when I think about it, one of the reasons I had such an urge to disappear. No matter how awful I felt, I seemed able to make other people feel pretty good. But this ability, which had made me a gifted child orator and, from my teens on, an appealing lover, had, by the time in question, made me a liar. How could anyone, in good faith, try to convince anyone else that all was well? So, my only course of action was to keep my comforting mouth shut. Not that I was needed. The president eulogized those Dallas officers on July And I know that because I know America. White America was on its way to electing a white nationalist who, before his own presidential campaign, had launched a smear campaign to prove that Mr. Obama was a Kenyan-born Muslim. The basic bargain had long been this: Conform to the standard of this society. Learn the language, worship the gods, go to the schools, join the army, start a family, hold a job, pay a mortgage, be clean and civilized, etc. A full and equal human being. You might even be president. The dangerously beautiful thing about being young and black in the year and , and right up till today, was that we had accumulated enough evidence to understand that we could hold up our end of the bargain yet still be subject to the violent whims of white citizens and the terrorism of the police. We would still be considered, if not called, niggers. It is a world-historic event, however, that while a black man slept in the White House, black children were murdered, by the state, on playgrounds, in their own backyards, in supermarket aisles. Worse, still, that he, the most powerful man on earth, could not or did not stop it — and offered, instead, calm and pacifying words. It is easy, cowardly even, to criticize the president, any president, in writing, when you would likely yes him to death in person. As I did Mr. President, how did eight years in the White House change you? Bush offered three answers, the second and third of which I hope to share some other time. The first, now: I became a better comforter , 43 replied. So 44, I suppose, was simply doing his job. I once heard a senior black administrator at Yale welcome a chapel full of black freshmen with advice that had been passed down to him: You may be a token … but be the best token you can be. And I heard, so many Sundays, that Proverbs question, Who can find a virtuous woman, for her price is greater than rubies? This mantra, mind you, is part of a larger strategy: Show a united front, root for everybody black. Nobody wins when the family feuds , the rapper raps. Or, no: We let the wrong and the guilty win. Can we not be among the wrong and guilty? Now, I have laid this line of thinking on a few folks I respect, and boy did it piss them off. Respectability is what got you here! I am not. Between the ages of 4 the earliest age I remember and 10, except for one year between 5 and 6, my mother, my father, my sister, and I constituted, by any standard I believe in, a damn good family. Someone had, before we arrived, added a second story to the back of the original squat white-brick house. Upstairs were two empty bedrooms and a shower, filled with cobwebs. Filled also — as was the second floor entire, and the stairwell leading to it — with the smell of raw sewage. You can get used to anything, of course, so around age 9 or 10, I began to do my homework on the higher floor, at a TV dinner stand. I know my mother had come to inspect, during a break from the hours she spent in the downstairs bathroom, putting on her face. You know you are supposed to leave more space than THAT between your words. Gone and tear that out so we can start over. Go ahead. Now use yours for the rest. She rose and walked back down the stairs. Some months later, after my father chased her with a dinner fork, my mother, my sister, and I left that house, with the encouragement of two Dallas policemen. We returned, not long after, to collect our last few things. 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I kept right on putting space between my words, kept standing still to recite those words in a pleasing manner for all involved, kept quiet whenever necessary — and seeing as though these skills helped me get to Yale and Harvard, and even to write to you now, I suppose you could say that respectability did get me here , but you could also say that this misses the basic fucking point. As we flipped the menu three or four times, he shared that he had watched every speech of mine he could find, and read many interviews, too. I figured he was flirting, so responded as always when hoping to sidestep an advance — Oh wow — and stared at the menu, flipping it a few more times. Yeah , he leaned over the table, I was trying to decide if you was the Feds. I looked up. Like, the FBI? Hell yeah man … thought you might be trying to infiltrate the movement. I loved a boy, some years before this lunch, who had been torn between loving me and dying for the movement. He figured he could do both. I was unconvinced. Gone home , I said, before I said, good night. You right. He texted from down south the next morning. His comrade called from outside the jail to update me re: the situation. She cried. His closest kin held phones elsewhere, listening. I suppose I was Coretta Scott for the evening. Yet all I wanted was to get back to sleep. Second only to the highest prize, death. You simply cannot do a certain kind of work these days perhaps it has always been this way without the aroma of martyrdom hanging on you. I pass no judgment. Or, at least, leave me out of it. I wanted, at the time of my disappearance, to be left out of everything. This worked to some degree. I spent so much time alone that I asked, on the rare occasions I found myself in conversation with others: Are things really as bad as they seem? Seem, that is, on the news, which I no longer watched, or the internet. The first time I asked this question, December , was in a booth at an Austin taco joint. A journalist I knew from Brooklyn flew down with his wife and two friends. The journalist shook his head. Much worse. I mean, nobody can believe it. She looked around, as if for witnesses. I whispered. I have yet to discover any stronger response than Wow. I can say the Wow , but, to tell the truth, I have not felt a Wow. To be a Negro in this country, Baldwin wrote, and to be relatively conscious is to be in a rage almost all the time. I love Jimmy, but No, thank you. I left my visitors and drove to the old house I rented on a quiet two-lane street, next to an old couple that had been married and in the same residence for 61 years. To my right lived a young woman whose boyfriend soon moved in, as did his adopted black son. Not long after, in moved also two spotted piglets. I noticed a new yard sign:. I never saw who lived in the house to the right of this couple. I did see their yard signs, at least six sprinkled in the front and side grass. All read:. Sam and Jean, the historic couple on my left, were fantastic neighbors. They would cross my yard to say hello to the piglets, or feed them when the couple left town. When I left town, Sam would roll my garbage bin to the curb. Jean would collect my mail from the porch. Sam and Jean kept eyes on everything, on behalf of everyone. Hey, Casey! Sam grazed a few grass blades with one foot. Sam and Jean saw it all. Yet, somehow, they missed whoever broke into my house, in broad daylight, late February , and walked out with a watch and a ring and cash and a large television, leaving the front and back doors wide open. They could not believe, for the life of them, that it happened, since they had not seen a thing. I could not believe them. I moved downtown, into a former paper factory. No burglars, nor anyone I knew, could reach me on the tenth floor without my assistance. I could hear, from inside of my front door, whether anyone was in the hallway, so never risked having to speak to my neighbors. I could take the elevator, steps from my apartment, directly to my car, and to a small grocery store on the ground level. I did not even have to meet the mail persons — someone left packages at my doorstep, or in a locker in the lobby. Then came March 2, That morning, in North Austin, Anthony Stephan House, 39, opened a package that had been left outside his front door. It exploded, killing him. House had been the victim of mistaken identity. Ten days later, in East Austin, Draylen Mason, a year-old double-bassist set to start college at University of Texas at Austin in the fall, opened a package that his mother had brought into the kitchen from the front porch. The package exploded, injuring his mother and killing Draylen. Mother and son also attended Wesley United. The Mason and House families had known each other for a long time. The investigators did not agree. There were connections between the House family and the Masons, but nothing that would make any of them a target. Late on the night of March 20, when the suspect drove out of the hotel parking lot and onto the Interstate 35 service road, a SWAT crew followed him and, before he could enter the freeway, pinned the red pickup between two SWAT vehicles. As one officer rammed the passenger side window, a bomb exploded. The suspect had blown himself up. The deaths that occurred here were random and meaningless , the district attorney announced. This can never be called a happy ending. I do not believe them. He later claimed that, soon after this, Oscar Grant attacked his partner and then turned on Pirone himself, at which point Pirone had to fight for my life. This testimony, an investigation proved, was a lie. Pirone sat Mr. Grant on the platform, then kneed him in the face. Pirone forced Mr. Grant to lie face down, keeping him still with one knee while Mehserle struggled to put on handcuffs. Claiming that the unarmed Mr. Grant was resisting arrest and possibly reaching for weapon, Mehserle drew his gun, stood up, and fired one shot into Mr. Oscar Grant died later that day. He was 22 years old. Pirone, who called Oscar Grant nigger throughout the incident, was fired but served no jail time. Mehserle was found guilty of involuntary manslaughter, and served days in the Los Angeles Central Jail. I remember going to the theater with a white classmate, in Cambridge, to see Fruitvale Station. The movie ended with the end of Mr. As the credits rolled, my classmate began to weep. We sat there in the credit-darkness for a long time, silent except for the sounds of people mostly white crying. Eventually we processed out of the theater, still not saying a word. In the parking lot, she turned to me, Tabasco-colored streaks across her eyeballs. I cannot fucking believe it. I felt a sudden urge to knock her to the pavement. Believe it. So much of our time, these years, or at least since Mr. Douglass put forth his story in , has been spent trying to get white Americans to believe it. Believe that the cops do what we know they do. To be white in this country is to have the luxury of believing the official story, or the lie, re: Sandra Bland, re: Emmett Till, re: the goddamn Civil War. It has proved impossible to purge our assailants of their tendency to assail. Is there even a movement? So, you could say that I have infiltrated the movement, and you could also say there is no movement to infiltrate. Or holding anyone accountable these days, it seems, including our treasonous president. Some have earned a great deal of money. Some have died naturally , whatever that means for a year-old like Ms. Erica Garner; others have been killed. A solid number have done the humble, grueling work of daily organizing. They have put forth, not only in the Capitol but in town halls coast-to-coast , serious demands such as, to the police: Stop killing us. By and large, those demands have been ignored. So, her question reflects, fundamentally, the heartbreaking sense of futility that seeps into any young person who strives to make America a nobler country. We continue to be, as Frank Wilderson writes, haunted by a sense that violence and captivity are the grammar and ghosts of our every gesture. Never in American history have more artists, filmmakers, writers, scholars, etc. We have been granted, in place of revolution, a pep rally. I ask you, though: Are we captured? Or, is that all we are? In , a group of captured Igbo rebelled at Dunbar Creek, Georgia. Dey gits drown. The Igbo chanted, as they walked into the water: The Sea brought me and the Sea will bring me home. No doubt many captured Africans flung themselves overboard or found other ways to end their earthbound lives. Nor do I blame you, should you ever decide to follow their lead, or should you ever follow the fighters into the streets, or elsewhere. No one, in these years, has discovered the sure path to freedom. My condition worsened. Her diagnosis, not entirely incorrect: I possessed a crippled sense of self-esteem. You have got to unlearn that slave mentality, darling. What a curious thing to unlearn. My third great-grandmother was born in an unknown place, on an unknown day, sometime in , and first appears in the record of human history on the United States Census, in a town called Caldwell, Texas. Name: Amanda Oliver. Age: Servant in the house of A. McIver, 43, a Confederate veteran and judge. If Ms. The first time I read that record, a soft bitter cry came loose, and I was mad, mad as hell at Judge McIver and all the other evil McIvers, mad that I had never known, mad that I now knew. Yes, I was ashamed. It is one thing to understand the abstract notion that your people were enslaved; another thing to have the proof that, not too long ago, your own kin was born into the social class of animals. My mother had 12 of us children …. I stopped, turned around, saw the crackling black-and-white footage coming from a television mounted on the white wall. You think I sent you out here just to whoop and yell? No matter how you all done treat me and my children. The Lord is showed me the way! She winces —. Ruby Dee is crying, her fingers pressed namaste under her nose, as the camera pans out to reveal a group of black men and women sitting next to and standing over her, around a riser or prop picket fence , looking sorrowfully on. Ruby Dee was performing the testimony of Ms. Gary reflected on another of her works: The film is centered around the idea of transgenerational trauma — trauma can be imprinted in the DNA of our ancestors and transmitted down the line. Are we trapped in these repeated intrinsic patterns or can we access transgenerational wisdom and free ourselves from them? Might we access, also, transgenerational ecstasy? Ecstasy, Abraham Heschel explained, is a state in which the soul is, as it were, freed from, or raised above, the body. Ecstasy may denote , he adds , 1 a raving condition, 2 alarm, 3 tranquility of spirit, 4 prophetic rapture. All, of course, defy human logic, as does human flight, perhaps the highest form of ecstasy. By human logic we should all be dead, so what have we got to lose? What, more urgently, have we to remember? Why , one asked , would we celebrate becoming slaves? We are not, I told her. We are marking the birth of a new race of people — our people , enslaved and all. We take a backward glance at them to enact a future vision for ourselves. To learn how to access that gift Ms. I do believe they are our greatest hope. Oh, to learn anew the slave mentality! No surprise to Celie:. Well, you know how niggers is. Every nigger you see got a kingdom in his head. One central aim of these years has been to convince us that the kingdom in our head will get us killed. I can say, surely, there are less noble things that might still lead to death. I want to take my chances: to fly, if only in the kingdom of my mind. I planned to drop acid for this very purpose. A doctor warned that, with my genetic predisposition for mental illness, I might go mad and never come back. I settled for a safer ecstasy: meditation. I sit each day, or try to. Three, 15, 45 minutes. I breathe, deeply. The yogi says: If the breath is deep, life is deep; if the breath is shallow, life is shallow. Let come what comes. Let go what goes. See what remains. My back aches. I sit. My hips grow sore. My left foot, only my left, for some reason, falls asleep under my right knee. I wiggle it a little, and sit. The yogi says: When you are able to sit, the whole universe will come with folded hands, and serve you. I will say: While you wait for the whole universe to come, the whole world comes in its place, demanding a response, demanding action, demanding sorrow, tears, and blood. Perform your civic duty, yes. Help those in need. Weep with those who weep , as the Pope once preached. But the most radical act we can commit is to be well — to bring about the day, and soon, when, to be a Negro in this country and to be relatively conscious is to be at peace. Perfect peace. The leader is something of a legend, and took that status to mean that the audience was there to see him , and that each player was subject to his authority. He wanted to put on a show, so started barking orders at the other musicians, most of all my pianist sister who, aside from being a prodigy, is rather mild-natured. If she was the type to be embarrassed, it would have been embarrassing. This continues for a few minutes, until, calmly, the pianist slips her fingers from the piano keys and rests them in her lap. She does not leave the stage. She does not shout or scowl. And she does not play another note. Oh, to be a nigger with a kingdom on the inside! My journalist friend rang me in Los Angeles, from Brooklyn, soon after I released the book I had written while away. Some weeks passed, and my pace of action did not pick up enough, so he rang again. We hung up and I went to sleep. In Roman Africa, nearly 2, years ago, Tertullian, the early Christian theologian, wrote: Sleep is combined with ecstasy. In fact, with what real feeling … do we experience joy, and sorrow and alarm in our dreams. It was in sleep that God, in Genesis, came to Abraham:. As the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram; and lo, a dread and great darkness fell upon him. Then the Lord said to Abram: Know of a surety that your descendants will be sojourners in a land that is not theirs, and will be slaves there, and they will be oppressed for four hundred years. In Atlanta, not long ago, a theologian in training, on the brink of disintegration due in large part, she believes, to white supremacy and capitalism , began to nap. Naps really saved my life — and now she spreads the word to others, through the Nap Ministry: Our dream space has been stolen and we want it back. Naps are reparations. Oh, to miss the moment! I will not stay woke. I spent many hours alone in a large, low-ceilinged back room, surfing the internet and listening to the same albums on repeat — most of all, Ms. That delay did nothing to tame the confusion, the heartbreak, that spread when it became clear to those who loved her or thought they did , that Ms. Lauryn Hill, perhaps the greatest artist of her time, had renounced her fame — or, rather, had renounced the life required to maintain her fame. I used to be a performer, she said on the opening track. One music critic called this the least enticing introduction in the history of the live album. He had nothing kinder to say about the rest: The lyrics are confused and elliptical , strung together to make a messy, inconsequential album. Or, about Ms. Lauryn Hill as a figure: One popular theory is that Hill is just barking mad. The bulk , perhaps. It was Interlude 5 I turned to then and still turn to, today. A minute, second homily. 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