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hi mursyid. mek siktauk apa mek boleh polah ngan ktk time cuti so mek fikir maybe by bagik ktk banyak words of affirmation how much i love you can make you feel better and can make you try to love me again as before. first of all mek sik pernah mixed feeling ngan ktk. time ktk pergi yale kmk sik pernah gago pun mok chat mok tengok mok fikir orang lain. ktk jak 24 hour lam palak mek. everytime balit prep mek selalu menulis. mek akan padah how mek lalui my day without ktk. apa mek rasa time ktk sikda. how mek adapt supaya mek sik sedeh and apa mek polah supaya mek sik rindu ktk gilak sampe hilang focus dalam kelas. kmk tulis semua benda. how much mek rindu ktk. kmk even buat my own calendar tunggu ktk balit. counting days berapa hari gik tinggal. kmk siktauk how to convince ktk yang kmk nang sikda mixed feeling ngan ktk. semua feeling mek semua rah ktk. perasaan mek sik berbelah bagi pun. it’s all yours to begin with mursyid. mek sayang ktk gilak gilak mursyid that kmk nang in desperate mok denga yang ktk sayang mek juak and no matter ngan perempuan ni pun ngan ktk gamba ktk still sayang mek and mok mek. that’s why kmk sebut ‘break’ ya. not because kmk mixed feeling NO! tapi sebab kmk mok denga ktk still sayang kmk. and i know that’s a very selfish way of me to get kepastian yang ktk still sayang kmk. and when ktk jawab not with the answer yang kmk expect kmk nang lost mursyid. and to experience that kind of feeling is something yang kmk sikmok going through again someday. kmk sikpat accept the fact yang kita dua sikda papa. kmk selfish mursyid. kmk mok ktk untuk mek jak. kmk sikmok ktk gerek ngan orang lain. nang mena mun ada jodoh adalah tapi to me sik. kmk sayang ktk mursyid. tapi bila mek denga yang ktk sakit time gerek ngan mek. kmk mok fix mok ktk yang dolok pi mek takut output nya bukan apa yang mek expect. kmk sumpah sayang ktk gilak gilak. for now i dont think i want to let you go. but if you insist for your own best then that left me with no other choices but to follow the flow. i would do anything to make you happy. as long as you’re happy mursyid. that’s all that matter right now. i think for now you need to focus on yourself more and please please please do things that can make you happy. give yourself time mursyid. you deserve your own time. healing orang kata. boh fikir gilak pasal kmk pasal kita. FOCUS ON YOURSELF FIRST! pasal kitadua ktk letak tepi. go find yourself first. i love you very much mursyid. let’s fix on this relationship together. it may be only me who need to fix this whole situation but i still need your support. please dont let me do this alone please help me and lend me a hand when i need one. i hope you can trust me. and please. please keep on loving me walaupun sikit. ktk mungkin sikkan cayak mek yang mek nang sikda mixed feeling mek nang sayang ktk gilak gilak tapi mek sikkan give up remind ktk yang mek nang sayang and suka ktk gilak gilak gilak. im sorry for everything mursyid. i made a lot of mistakes that sometimes i think that i dont deserve any forgiveness from you. but please trust me that i really love you.