Happy

Since I was 17

I've always hated my body

And it feels like my body's hated me

Can somebody find me a pill

To make me un-afraid of me?

Seen every therapist, but I'm a cynical bitch

Don't like to talk about my feelings

I take another hit, I find another fake fix

'Cause it's easier than healing

I don't wanna be this way forever

Keep telling myself that I'll get better

Every time I try, I always stop me

Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

Since I was 22

I've been with somebody who loves me

And I've been tryna believe it's true

But my head always messes up my heart

No matter what I do

Seen every therapist, but I'm a cynical bitch

Don't like to talk about my feelings

I take another sip, I swear it's my last fix

'Cause it's easier than healing

'Cause I don't wanna be this way forever

Keep telling myself that I'll get better

Every time I try, I always stop me

Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

I don't wanna be this way forever

Keep telling myself that I'll get better

Every time I try, I always stop me

Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

I'm so scared of having something to lose

I'm scared of being somebody new

I'm so scared of all them seeing the truth

'Cause right now I've got nothing

But I don't wanna be this way forever

Keep telling myself that I'll get better

Every time I try, I always stop me

Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

Maybe I'm just scared to be happy (Maybe, yeah)

Maybe I'm, I'm scared to be happy

👽@Goodnightearthlings👽