, h.

Hehe been a while since i tell you that i’ll sending u a last email, and maybe today is the time to do it

28? 28th of September? Of course i’m not choosing this date with nothing. Do u remember when i asked you why i always send u an email tiap tanggal yg ada angka 2nya? Cause 2 means my birthday and so do u, 8 means infinity, the line when you make an 8 number will never end so it means infinity.

hi haedar hahahaha sounds so cliché but i hope you can understand karena ngumpulin niat buat ngomongin ini dari dulu susah bangettt buat diri aku sendirii:)

Can’t believe how i can remembered all too well, all the “first” and all the things, maybe you won’t believe klo aku ceritain semuanya dari awal, mungkin iya kesannyaa aku don’t care about u at all dlu ya? maybe i’m too unstable, tapi i remember semuanyaaa, your first chat maybe not in my phone anymore, but i remember what photo did you use to set the profile picture, what first context that you said to me for our first conversation, what movie series that you recommend to me, and i still remember how i feel when in the middle of the night we send our voicenotes at each other di instagram banyaaaaaaaaakkk bgt. to be honest i’m happy at that moment. But i’m too naive for my ownself, sorry ya baru bisa berani:(

sorry karena baru bilang dan jujur akan hal ini setelah semuanya ginii? setelah kita udh ga deket dan ga ada apaa aku baru bisaa ngerasa aman untuk ceritain semua di hari ini walaupun range waktunya jauhbgt

And i’m so sorry for letting you go 2 years ago, maaf aku jahat. i really feel so guilty and sad that night. Little that u don’t know, i really sad and regret for what i’ve done to u ketika hari ituu. Even after several days after June 24 2021 i really want to tell u that i want u to stay tp aku terlalu gengsi until u give up on me.

I don’t