Game of Thrones

The final season of Game of Thrones is here so I started re-watching the previous 7 seasons, one last time, as I am pretty sure I won't be watching it anytime sooner again.

As I was binging on the show, I realised that I had forgotten a lot of key scenes which had failed to relate to back in 2015. Those scenes have a new meaning in my life now, and here I have described those scenes:

Nothing lasts forever. I think I have finally come to terms with this fact about how ephemeral everything relationship is. I have learnt to live the few days left to the fullest and not worry about how it will all change. I implemented this in my 4th and final year at College, when I was devastated at the prospect of leaving Bucky and living in a new city. But since then, it has been an year already, and we are closer than ever. We still talk like before, and he is my best friend.

I have taught myself to never let anyone question my way of life. That's because they do not know my story. They do not know how much I have suffered to be where I am. I have taught myself to pay heed to the advise of only my best friends as they know me and would give advise to improve me as a person.

I have never understood why people take to drinking so much and what attracts them to it. May be one day I'll ask Bucky about it as he drinks often.

This is the exact advice that Bucky gave to me when I told him that I am attached to him when he just had a breakup. He was very vulnerable and wanted to detach himself from everyone.

I really liked how Sam and Gilly are bonding together, and I like how he describes her here. He says despite how much Gilly has suffered because of Craster, she still has hope that life will get better. This has to be implemented.

Before Ygritte died in Jon's arms, she asked him does he remember the cave? It was the best memory they had together and now it had all come to an end. I believe we should make memories and cherish every moment with our loved ones, as we never know when we will get to meet them again.

What do we have left once we abandon the lie?
Chaos.
A gaping pit waiting to swallow us all.
Chaos isn't a pit.
Chaos is a ladder.
Many who try to climb it fail and never get to try again.
The fall breaks them. And some are given a chance to climb, but they refuse. They cling to the realm or the gods or love.
Illusions.
Only the ladder is real.
The climb is all there is.

People work together when it suits them.
They’re loyal when it suits them.
They love each other when it suits them, and they kill each other when it suits them.

I like how all the knowledge Sam has is from Books and how well read he is.

I like the loyalty of Bronn towards Tyrion. He will do anything for him and also be practical about it. Kind of like the friendship Jake and Charles share. Or Ted and Barney share. I wanna be that kind of a friend to my Bucky.

Tyrion has always been the most misunderstood, tormented and abused character just because he is a dwarf. He has been mistreated all his life for reasons which were beyond his control. Some will argue that Sansa has been the most tortured character, but will strongly disagree, because Sansa had it coming, because she took stupid decisions. I love how Tyrion tolerates all the abuse with grace and dignity.

When Sansa asks Little Finger why do men drink, when she found it really tasteless, he says it gives some men courage. I pondered and realised that may be that is why so many people, including my Bucky drink.

Jamie is Brienne's savior, her love and her friend. She could endure all her struggles, because Jaime gave her the respect and support. So did Renly Baratheon. They made her feel that he is not worth something and not an imposition on the planet. Bucky has been my savior just like that. He has supported me rain or shine, told me that he loves me as a family and listens intently for whatever I have to say to him. I have a samll fan base now, who will pick up pitchforks for me when I'm in despair. He has helped me build a scar tissue over my emotional wounds. Given me the respect and validation I have always yearned for.

Truer words haven't been said. Love just happens. You do not choose who you love. You just gradually start loving them, and it starts feeling like the sun shines out of their ass. You start thinking ways in which you could make them happier, make their life a bit easier. Bucky has taught me both love and heartbreak, and given me experiences which will prepare me for the future.

This is how Cersie describes Myrcella. I was so overwhelmed. I too want to remembered in this way. As I am truly good at heart. I don't want anyone to have tough times, but I am really choosy abbout who I let in my life. I do not want drama, but that does not mean I hate you. I am fiercely loyal to the people I have chosen to stay in my life. They add value to my life and help me in becoming better.

My favorite scene from the whole series -

“Confess. Confess. Confess. Confess: It felt good, beating me. Starving me. Frightening me. Humiliating me. You didn’t do it because you cared about my atonement. You did it because it felt good. I understand. I do things because they feel good. I drink because it feels good. I killed my husband because it felt good to be rid of him. I fuck my brother because it feels good to feel him inside me. I lie about fucking my brother because it feels good to keep our son safe from hateful hypocrites. I killed your High Sparrow and all his little sparrows, all his septons, all his septas. All his filthy soldiers. Because it felt good to watch them burn. It felt good to imagine their shock and their pain. No thought has ever given me greater joy. Even confessing feels good, under the right circumstances.”

This has been my philosophy for every action I take and for every person I love. I did it because I felt good.

Hotpie taught me how to be genuinely good. He is not money driven, even though his earnings from the pie meant a lot to him. He still did not let Arya pay. I have the same relationship with my Bucky. He knows that too. That is why he can comfortably ask me for monetary help, knowing that he can return it back to me whenever it suits him.

Tyrion says this to Jamie, and I was so touched. Just like Jamie was a savior to Tyrion, so was Bucky to me. I have spent 95% of my college life with him, and he helped me survive it all to the point that I actually started enjoying it. We have shared so many years and memories together, which I will cherish all my life. It has been a year after college, that is 5 years of our knowing each other and we are stronger than ever. We still talk regularly and discuss our lives. He even confessed to me that he loves me like family. When he says ''Love is more powerful than reason" to Jon Snow, it reminds me of how many times I have acted foolishly just to save our friendship. But I have no regrets, because I know that if I had acted any differently, I would have lost him altogether.

She finally overcame all her hardships and became the Queen in the North. I have to learn from all my troubles and keep becoming better just like ow Bucky taught.

And now my watch has ended.