Friends

Disclaimer: I'm not a professional or advanced writer, nor do I strive to be - I just wanted to share my thoughts. :) Thank you

Friends or having a friend group is so different than having a bestfriend. I'm just finally exploring that. Recently, I stopped being bestfriends with someone I had known for many years - 7 to be exact. We were both childhood friends and sisters. I never imagined the day where we wouldn't be together doing everything, until I did. I was the one who decided it was best to move on from this friendship. It began one day where I woke up and no longer felt that my bestfriend was truly a friend as I was or tried to be to her. It was one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make. Do I regret it? From time to time I feel extreme sadness and perhaps emptiness but, I don't regret it.

Today, I went out with a group of friends from my school. It was fun. Then I realized that no one really texts to see how you're doing individually. It seems less meaningful sometimes as a huge group - as much as I love each friend in my group- it's far different then having a bestfriend. My old bestfriend felt like a soulmate and I know, just like anyone, she can't be replaced. However, I'm also not willing to come back because I know things would never be the same and the fear that things would be exactly the same.

I still love and care for her but, moving on is definitely hard since it feels like no one else can have such a deep connection with you as she did. One day I might have another bestfriend, one that makes me feel good about being myself rather than feeling suffocated.

Question(s) for you:

Have you ever experienced or are presently experiencing something like this?

What do you think about the concept of friendship?