for you

pir, maaf sekali lagi kalo misalnya aku minta maaf terus ke kamu, tapi jujur aku minta maaf lagi ya untuk sebelumnya. kamu kalau ngerasa ga nyaman karena aku tinggal bilang aja ya, jangan silent treat gitu cuman karena kamu gamau bikin aku sakit hati, kamu jangan terlalu mementingkan perasaan orang ya, justru kalau kamu jujur aku malah seneng karena kamu bisa terbuka sama aku, makasih ya udah mau buat hari hari ku bahagia terus walaupun kamu lagi ada masalah yang sampe ngebuat mental state mu menurun, jangan pernah menyerah ya. satu hal yang harus selalu kamu ingat, Tuhan itu baik kok, selalu baik, jadi kamu jangan mengira kalo kamu bakalan ngestuck di keadaan kaya gini terus, semua pasti ada jalan keluarnya. aku juga ga keberatan kok kalau feedback mu kaya gimana, aku pasti selalu menerimanya dengan baik. maaf ya, kalau aku selalu badmood itu bukan karena kamu, tapi karena hal lain yang ga kamu tau, dan disitu aku malah diemin kamu, justru aku tambah sedih kalau kamu sedih juga, aku selalu kepikiran.

i can only say this,

i hope you can forgive my mistake. I'm sorry if earlier I made you feel uncomfortable just because of what I did, I was too concerned with my own ego without thinking about how you feel, and your condition at that time. and

I also always force you to keep doing what I want, you give me too much good,

you are the nicest person i have ever met. I'm so lucky to have you, don't ever feel like you're useless, okay? Thank you for wanting to be the best, may good things come to you. if you are not comfortable with me just say yes to me? I do not mind. I will not be angry what you want to think, because it is your right and I certainly understand your feelings. I don't want us to continue like this, I just want us to be at peace and be able to build a better relationship, I want us to laugh and joke together again, I want our relationship to get better, I hope you can forgive me. i love you so much, i love you more, i love you more than u know, you're ma spirit, lucky to have u<33💗💗💐💐💖💘💟💟

maaf kalo menurutmu cringe, i'll do my best for u