Feeling 😭

Today is well I don't know if it's 4th 5th or 6th day of having this feeling but it's just heart wrenching. I feel so sad and I can't explain it to anyone. My mom is worried about me n I don't know how to tell her or anyone what is happening 

Well it all started when i saw shadowhunters and I don't know what's with that show but seeing all that made me sad and I don't know what to do. I don't eat much. All i want ti do is lay in bed all day and cry. I cried yesterday which made me fell better for sometime but then again today i having the same feeling. Maybe it's because i don't have anyone to talk to or maybe because i didn't get admission anywhere but i hope Allah helps me with everything. It's such a strange feeling sometimes i feel happy and then after a second i feel so sad. I should have never watched that show. This is all for now maybe writing this will help me.

And i hope everything gets better with time