Dream

okay so like. there was this guy. he's about our age, rich, and a psychopath. basically he's like sierra but with even less frame of reference for sympathizing. I met him because he was bored and rammed his monster truck into my car while it was parked in an underground parking lot, which crushed or damaged like 5 other cars on the way. I think I was at the jc or something and had just gotten out of class bc everybody showed up at the same time as if we had all just been in the same place. anyway obviously everyone was upset but I came up to him and called him out on his shit without getting emotional about it and that was really interesting to him. We started hanging out, he got me a new car. We would drive around or do crazy shit. There were no consequences for his actions so he kind of just did whatever he wanted. He would often talk about violent things or how easy it would be to kill someone who was annoying him or even how he could kill me if he wanted but he didn't. He liked me for some reason. ( he never killed anyone ftr he was just doing That Thing. ) He bought me a lot of things and we spent most of our time together, he would even show up in the middle of the night to pick me up so I basically had no free time away from him. He would also do weird things like mess with shit in my room, like at one point he was like "I read your diary" and I was like "what diary??? oh do you mean that shit from when I was like 12?" but it was still totally an invasion of privacy. He was definitely a vindictive person but never towards me, so when he did that kind of shit it was just because he didn't understand he wasn't supposed to. I was constantly treading the line between calling him out on his shit but never getting visibly upset. that was what he liked about me, so I kind of had to tone down my reactions around him. The worst thing he did was one time we were driving and someone was crossing the street up ahead and even knowing him I thought for sure he would stop for them but he slowed down and kept going and then hit them, not hard enough to do any serious damage but I'm sure it was still really traumatic for them.

At one point I met his mother and younger sister, who lived in an entire mansion but only ever used a small portion of it so the rest was used as storage space, covered in dust and full of junk. They were both just as weird as him but in a radically different way. Whereas he had very little understanding for social rules they were extremely cognizant of every action we took and easily jumped to offense, but in a vindictive and passive-aggressive way where it seemed like they wanted to start shit more than that they actually cared. Like when I made a mistake I said "oh shit I'm so sorry" and they were both immediately offended that I had used profanity in front of his sister even though she was like... idk, 14. The fact that she was offended too really made me realize that they were fake because what 14 yo gets upset about that?? kids want to be seen as more mature, not be sheltered and coddled. The daughter especially seemed to really want to get me in trouble, probably because of my relationship with her brother who I got the sense she didn't like much. I actually felt like they all silently hated each other. But he was completely unfazed by all this shit and actually seemed weirdly good at maneuvering around it and making it hard for them to come up with reasons to be upset.

At some point in the dream, both dream me and actual me realized that we were dating and I was like. oh. I was definitely attracted to him but we never discussed being in a relationship it just slowly happened ig and I was completely oblivious, sort of like w Harley. I was... okay with it though? Romantically he was very low maintenance, he was totally okay with physical contact but didn't usually seek it out, and he mostly expressed his love by spending time with me and buying me things. He wasn't into super romantic things like flowers and dinner dates, you know the things I always complain about, but we sort of ended up doing all that stuff anyway just in a really lowkey way. Like yeah we ate dinner together at fancy restaurants but it never felt like a Date, it just felt like tuesday, so it made it a lot easier for me.

Anyway once I realized we were dating I was like Okay. I Am Legally Allowed To Be Horny Now. My dreams ALWAYS cut away before actual sex scenes unless they're Bad(tm) which is super annoying but I do remember having a moment while I was unbuttoning his shirt where I was like "just to be clear you know I'm not bottoming right?" and he was so surprised lmao like tbh I *was* acting like a bottom for most of this dream but still.