Dirty

I pray for crash

the bus I'm in

I beg to smash

the cars,

To finish my metamorfosis to a trash

I woudn't resist it much

If someone comes and beat by knife

Me right to dying heart

But bullet's always better choice

One second and no stupid woes

I want to pass as quick as possibly allowed

at least like sound.

I want burn down all my papers

And start inhaling poisonous vapor

That brings me pleasure for some time,

But it's delayed suicide

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Don't want to see what's in my chest

I'm scrolling feed

Distracts from it

I want to tired be

in seconds drop to sleep

In other case I would for hours lay

Observing pictures that made dirty me that day

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[2 times super hard]

dirty dirty dirty

like a dirty whore

Like a transexual that's standing near wall

Like fly on a decaying corpse

I'm feeling even worse

Like filthy trash that's laying in a reeking pit

Pathetic flesh my dirtier than all of it

Moiste pit

I am imagining black moiste grave

When there's no one here

Deep blue in jewels sky

Wet air comes from forest - night

Blowes off my worries and fears

I let it go, from eyes are flowing subtle tears

My head is light - don't want to think

I lay in grave, awakenes link

The roots are gently hugging me around

No oxygen, I'm slowly blacking out

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No pain, the worlds release my spirit

I see transforming places I belong.

With earth I'm done.

Was disconnected no one knows how feels it

Whole pointless life for me was very long

My biggest fear's reincarnation

Respect Enstein for turning down prolongation

I finally have found endless peace

No pressure, expectations - only peace

No need to drink, to fuck, think

Meet stupid people, take a shit

I will forever calm and pure be in my narrow, moiste pit