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Ive been umm, stressed out, cause of this girl, S, she really, she really fucks me up, like, so so bad, and its complicated, cause you really have to be special in order to make her know you exist, and i dont even want to be with her in a romantic way you knwo, i really just want to be her firendo, cause i mean, i really want to help her out, with all we have been through its weird that she obviously has someone thats way more special than me in her life, G, but i do not want to get to that level, y just you know want to be her best friend or something, but with her telling me about all this guys that wan to be where G is its just i cant help but to think maybe im not even special on her life you know, ive been working on that for like 2 months now and now its just like, its not even worht it trying to be with her, cause its very difficult for me, and she really is the person i trust the most, but she is very very cold, specially with me, cause i see her connection with all this guys and how she really would rather be with guys like lets say K, S, even E, and the thought of that just has me stressed out, and i know that she is the most special person ive ever meet, but all that comes with trying to be with her man, cause she is perfect, not just in her way, but perfect