BABY

as you know im not good at words so, i found some on tiktok and nak bagi baby hehe sambil dengar lagu lagu baby la ek. Rn tengah dengar lagu sincerely.

that girl she's something special,

she's been through the worst of times,

but her heart oh my gosh her heart is just beautiful,

she cares for everyone around her,

she has been through more than anyone can ever imagine,

but she's still smiling,

she knows pain,

and that's why she's always making others laugh,

because seeing people smile means everything to her,

now, sayang told you sayang tak sure akan bagi ke tak this telegraph is because sayang nak give you something tapi tak as beautiful as you wrote.

star

year by year wonder the same thing,

been through the same loop,

same mistakes, same thoughts, same solutions,

pretending,

good at ignoring,

overthinking? thats me,

manage to handle myself back then,

lied, pain, hurt,

tried to renew the love,

but at the end just me,

found you my little star,

shines bright in my mind,

fills my mind with wonder,

who are you? what brings you here?

are you my new obsession? 

or just my stopover?

nope. she is mine.

nabi

the day you left me on read,

i'm the craziest person,

makes me mad,

but i'm thinking,

i'm no one,

but why?

why i felt this way,

whenever she responds?

even just a few words,

i'm happy,

happiest person on earth,

hey nabi,

i wanted to tell you, i miss you,

i miss the feels, your touch in me,

and its crazy to think how easy she gave me what i miss,

just through text, calls, meet in person, her poems,

makes me feel,

wanted.

hope

the season is changing again,

i'm lost in my own mind,

keep telling i need to deny,

this is not real,

keep trying, keep falling,

back to the starting line,

this is love,

right?

no,

its not love if i beg for it,

for what i want, what i miss, what i need,

the realization hit when i saw you,

you show me,

you gave and still give,

endless of love,

protect me is your priority,

loves to see me smile,

give what i deserve,

the world.

love letters

the truth,

need to let go,

or pain will fill,

but one love one need,

suffer if we release the string,

communicate through words be full of wonder ,

disguised the true meaning,

hidden until its time to tell,

i love you,

i need you,

i want you,

i heart you,

that's what we called love letters,

and you wrote it for me,

ahh this is love.

my angels

black wings,

pure heart,

falls into a deep black hole,

for the longest time,

until she became a fallen angel,

dear heart and soul,

dear cupid angels,

tell her,

please,

tell her i fall in love,

tell her i want her,

to be my healer, my one and only,

oh wait,

she is mine,

dreams do come true.

memories

not forget but forgive,

learn to let go,

but indeed is hard,

ties with endless love,

from young to adult,

finally learn what is best for me,

finally see for my point of view,

pain to do but,

i’m happy because my soul is waiting for me,

even time is harsh on her,

she facing her demon inside without me knowing,

she willing to do everything to make me forget and heal,

but we both know time is the only way to heal,

but my time with you,

worth the healing process better,

rather being alone waiting,

for the time to passed.

need

i need you,

to show you,

act of service?

physical touch?

quality time?

until you figure,

until you said,

”she finally show it”

”she finally free”

”she is mine”

”fully mine”

without hesitation,

i’m all yours,dummy.

dead of night

her name as she called,

a figure nobody knows,

feels dreadful,

is it a lifesaver,

or torment,

endure,

night comes,

weak,

unable to control,

her mind, body, and soul,

belong to you.

wish

i wish,

to be there,

to hug,

to keep you company,

to kiss your forehead,

until everything disappear,

including her,

so you can peacefully sleep,

in my arms,

your safe place,

your home,

i wish,

i can magically,

do it now.

heartrending

dark,

no way out,

just she and her,

in their world,

mind,

she thinks,

"can i always keep my head in the clouds? 

But is it cruel? 

Would it be a mistake if i don't ever look back down?"

reality or,

fantasy is better.

addiction

she said,

you are more than just a drug,

addicting,

the touch,

the warm,

the feels,

needed by her

everyday.

449km

will we able,

to live,

to love,

distance apart,

far away,

will you stay,

will it not be a reason,

will we be different,

can we meet again soon?

Shadow

its not real,

yet comfort,

had to talk with her,

indeed she is special,

cause only you can see her,

she being a naughty kid,

but you the one who got time out,

for all the things she did,

but,

is it lucky to be her?

Rain

gently patting on her head,

facing towards the sky,

wishing it will be heavier,

whenever its raining,

yes, 

happiness caught her back,

Sadness drops along with it,

Feels weird but true.

Broken

pain can be replace,

but,

i always wonder,

can i skip it,

without going thru,

erase what make me feels it,

wishing i have amnesia,

reality is harsh,

isn't it?

Cry

light been replace by darkness,

no shadow, no sound,

just me,

wondering in my own thoughts,

what if fills my mind,

can i be proud of me,

still alive,

seeing my loves one,

and once again i manage to live.

Mr.SAD

hey,

why are you sad?

not sure myself,

why don't you ask your heart,

keep denying,

keep having a hard time,

crying alone,

wake up happy smile,

but you know,

the day will end with me,

i'm mr.sad,

apart from you,

channeling what you feel,

is what i do,

pain.

Euphoria

1:23am,

in my darkest time,

all alone,

no one knows,

cry,

trembling,

fear in mind,

lie to tell my heart,

but that is my past,

she came,

beside me,

waiting,

and keep waiting,

heart beat fast,

hearing only in my own ears,

to me,

she is more than just a girl,

she is my euphoria.

Nyawa

sweet,

taste heavenly,

center of my Universe,

precious gem,

she is the apple of my eyes,

make me laugh with teary eyes,

her soft skin,

lovely to touch,

to trace,

have her own amazing ways to win me,

is a blessing,

no matter how long it will last,

i am thankful for the rest of my life,

i can meet you,

my nyawa.

Proud

the battle that she face endlessly,

versus herself,

the pain she hides,

can other person understand,

accept her,

like i do?

wanna know a secret?

she is changing,

stronger,

she has me,

her lucky charm,

whenever she in need,

i'm here, 

i wish i can make it go,

all i did is to distract her,

make her mind full of me again,

at least i try,

but at the end it just her,

and she manage to win,

tired but worth,

and i'm proud of her.