ACTIVE!
Sincerity
the dirt of yesterday mixed with glossy sweat
is an additional layer of lucidity
how often an ORDINARYtm person should take a shower in summer
to make this very personal form of physic experience
look more miserable then the unreal dirt of future
on the bathroom floor full of puddles
the unreal dirt of future is something we eager to wear as clothes
not something we want to turn into in the end of
numerous self-washing session
do you feel clean enough to participate in conversations
about what life should be like, how society should develop
norm-makers smell with vanilla and mint, norm-breakers are stinky and smell
shit, always
how would the child of a maker and a breaker look like
do they look like the people from the ads about HIV
or mental illness, or dangerous driving ads?
maybe they smoke in the shower, clean suiciders
heart-challengers, norm-livers, non-believers
do they piss in the shower, do they masturbate in the shower,
the one's who smell vanilla and shit at the same time
do they cut smelly wrists after covering a
pulsating head with a mint shampoo
are they clear enough to even dare to kill themselves so trivially
i haven't taken shower for several days and i want to get a huggie-hug
every time a drip of sweat falls in my tomato soup, i fear of being
kissie-kissed, bad rotten meth breath i have, and i choose not to care
about how dirty and stinky i am and how rot-teethy, infected-bloody i smell
i brush my teeth, i take my shower and i get very psychotic because of
the pointless habit of sniffing every minute, and i eat well also too, and
i sleep well most of the time, and i started to see dreams again,
and i fall in love with every bit of sugar i can find, cola, chocolate bars,
energy drinks, chocolate cookies, i think that's a common
thing for most of my friends, whose alive-ness is a sign to stay calm
for now at least
sometimes i feel paralysed by the energy i consumed and not used
during the time, we all do