Abuse

Ever been in a situation where you,the victim is always addressed as the offender?

Well, that's me.

At several different occasions, starting from the time I was molested till date

Well,the only thing my parents noticed when I was being molested was that I became rude to my abuser and they thought it was quite disrespectful.

I never want to remember my teen years of self hate ,asking myself repeatedly "why me?"I blamed myself for everything that happened and even contemplated suicide but couldn't bring myself to do it. I'm still healing and one of things keeping me from blaming myself is that a six year old is not to be blamed for the actions of an adult.

Still dealing with belittling from parents

Being the topic of discussion at every gathering

And my mom always goes"oh do you know that my child takes soda and bread as her life?; perhaps you didn't know that she could a guinea world record for largest consumer of soda?

Then she starts talking about my educational progress

And she goes this way"do you know that this is the third time my daughter is taking this exams,what a failure?

Well, ma'am you forgot that you made retake the exams all three times so as to get admitted to study the profession of "our" dream

Not my parents giving others the go ahead to belittle and abuse me, even stating that they are full support

And now it has crept into the family

Just yesterday,I scolded their child and they proceeded to give me a black eye and also some severe mouth lashing

And here am I today wondering "why me"

But it's alright because these feelings will be gone after a few days of self talk

Till date ,I still hope that my parents will see the consequences of their actions and not me throwing a "tantrum"