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Let's make something clear here. Let's declutter everything in our mind.

What is it im feeling right now?

I feel jealous. I feel stupid. I feel miserable. Those are the top three.

I feel jealous because I clicked something I shouldn't have. I don't want to say this but, I am feeling jealous and insecure right now because of my friend that drew my supposed-to-be friend and which I loathed now. The act made me envious how they still bond. And ALSO I was envious because of the number of people that supports him. XHATWBSKJZXGKS!!!! @=4+@=)6₱26!*#. I WANT TO WRITE CURSE WORDS BUT IM NOT THAT WORSE! AT LEAST NOT ON THAT EXTENT! I BLAME MYSELF FOR NOT BEING A FRIEND, NOT BEING SOCIAL, BEING TOO DUMB TO TELL THE SIGNS AND MAKE DECISIONS, I FEEL SO IRRESPONSIBLE! EVERYTHING I DO IS WORTHLESS! I FEEL VERY UNAPPRECIATED.

Am I depressed?

Yes? Actually I don't know. It's hard to self assess myself. But I'm pretty sure im so insecure of other people and family.

Here's the list of my insecurities

Appreciation.

True companion.

Someone I can share my problems with.

A parent that I can comfortably talk with without embarrassment.

Seing someone I hate gets ahead of me.

Not socially awkward

Excellent communication skills

What are the things that you're not insecure about to those people you're insecured at?

I'm not insecured about their wealth. Not definitely their faith. Not insecure about their social status, I don't really care if they have the power to manipulate, I don't back out people with statuses either. Or do I?

Who's bothering you?

An acquaintance

A friend

A phone

A parent

What are the actions you are taking?

A while ago, I made a decision to quit social media. It was half impulsive because of the post I saw. BUT I will take it. This is an opportunity to change the toxic relationships I'm having. Namely, phone, social media, and family. VERY TOXIC.

What would be the consequences?

I would be MIA for a bit but it's okay if I would benifit from it in the long run. I don't receive much important messages anyways. Remember the long term gratitude graph!

Would you really stand up for it?

YES.

YES I WILL. I am almost an adult, I MUST be responsible and independent.

HELP ME GOD.