began year by moving to my cousin's place (long, sad story) ... this time I was really depressed, it was at it's worst ... very little planning, but a very bad start to the year
Feb - moved back to my parents, smoked less weed overall, but still smoked ... so much anger
march - visited and stayed with grandparents for one month. It helped me slow down and just think about life from a different perspective. Went to Busia, got some food poisoning, overall after this month things started changing, and I was in control
April - started seeing a therapist, the first sessions were so bad, but it's because my therapist had under-estimated the severeness of my depression ... I actually did not get a diagnosis until
May - got diagnosed with depression after insisting on it. Now, after here, things were never the same again. After actually understanding that depression is a disease and not just some 'in your head' disorder, I just wanted to get better. This month I resumed jogging, which I hadn't done in years. I also went to yoga for the first time in over a year ... it was so awesome. My relationship with my siblings improved, but with my dad, not so much ... my mom has always been awesome
June - I read "Who Moved my Cheese?" and it really made me have a new perspective on a lot of things. I think this is my book of the year actually. It made me change, literally. From here, resumed coding and learning programming, therapy was much more productive, kept improving relationship with my family ... great month
July - mom and dad split up, and it was quite ugly, but this was mid-month ... for me, personally, kept growing and maturing, smoked maybe only two days the whole month ... bro moved out, my last regular session with my therapist at the end of the month, also I got a job as a transcriber, and it was just the worst, but being my first full-time job, I learnt quite a lot
August - applied for a diploma course, because I thought I could get what I needed in a two-year course, boy was I wrong. My first paycheck ever ... ugh, it was so little I spent it in 2 days ahahahaha. Kept going to work daily
September - School began, with the cash I made in August I moved the fuck out of home, was super broke, but kept transcribing immediately after school ... I quit the transcribing job because that nigga was becoming unreliable and unreasonable, one of the best decisions I made this year. I also applied to join Andela because after two days of school I knew it was going to be a complete waste of time and money ... Andela would train me and pay me, and I would get the chance to work abroad, why the fuck not?
October - Deferred studies, I just lost hope in that school and course lol, decided to focus more on Andela after I passed their initial interview. A lot happened here and there, good month overall.
November - This month was EPIC!!! Best month of all time ... Andela re-ignited a passion inside me I had forgotten ... It was like heaven ... Best month ever!!!
December - Worst month in months ahahahaha. So much fucking anxiety because I realized I might have fucked up with Andela, but then again I realized I was being dramatic and unreasonable and paranoid because of the weed I was smoking to calm me down. lol ... Overall, bad month for me ... actually the worst month since April ... but I know it will get better