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Hi. I’m pretty sure you can perfectly recall how I promised to make you something when you were going to sleep a few hours ago. So here it is, although it’s just a very simple letter (I do however have to apologize because I write this fully in English, you must be well-aware that I’m shy when it comes to writing a letter in Indonesian. :b) which is actually not very special, but I hope it can put a smile on your face even if it’s just a little bit.

To start this off, how did your day go? Did it treat you well? Or did it not, perhaps? You know you can always tell me about anything including how your day was, even if it’s just the smallest things in life because I just love listening to you talk.

As I’m writing this, I’m currently with my cousin and my sisters (my little sister is still wearing the bracelet you gave her, by the way. I never saw her taking it off) and the thought of you is still crossing the rail of my mind like it always does. So I thought: maybe I should write you something to (hopefully) cheer you up because you’ve been feeling sad lately so I'm hoping that this could help.

You know, I’ve said ‘I love you’ so many times, but it’s never enough to express how much I cherish and treasure you. You mean so much to me and I can never imagine how dull my world would be if I had never met you. You have an endearing soul as well as a tender heart that never fail to give my life so much warmth and colors. So when you feel like you always give me bad influences, that's just your brain giving you a false statement.

By the way, you know that the word ‘perfect’ can’t resonate with every single person in this world. Everyone is imperfect—they have flaws, they make mistakes, they break. It's all because they're humans, and so are you. You’re just a human being like we all are and you’re not a robot. You don’t have to be perfect, you don’t have to be good at everything you do, and you don't have to push yourself to always feel happy about everything. Instead, you’re supposed to have flaws to find your potential, make mistakes so you could grow, and feel emotions other than happiness such as sadness, fear, and anger to help you live your life to the fullest. You’re just a human, you’re imperfect, and so am I. But does it ever lessen my feelings toward you? The answer is no. It makes me love you even more because it amazes me that despite all your mistakes and flaws, you always try your best to be better. Besides, being imperfect doesn't mean you don’t have a good trait within you whatsoever. I can talk for hours about how selfless and compassionate you are, how loving and caring your heart is, and how you always want to help those who are less fortunate than you.

I can’t even count on one hand how many times you’ve said that you’re afraid of losing me. I don’t know how many times I’ve said that I’m not going anywhere either, but I hope you know that it’s true. I don’t think I’ve ever said this before, but deep down, I’m just as afraid as you are. I’m afraid of waking up and realizing that you’re not here with me anymore as I want to spend more days with you, to be with you through thick and thin. That’s why you don’t have to worry as I won’t look for anyone else, because you’re the one I always search for in every crowd.

Yours truly,

N.